Karma: What Goes Around Will Come Back Around


He can dish it out all the cheating, the lies, the disrespect but can he take the payback, does he ever think if it was ever worth it? These are the questions many men should ask themselves before stepping outside of their relationships and/or disrespecting the woman they say they love! Now, we all know that a man can cheat on his significant other with no problem, but he will still expect order in the household, he will still expect to be uplifted and valued as a King on the home front. Everything at home should still be the same although he has given her trust away, right?

Wrong, wrong, wrong!

A woman’s intuition is worth so much more than a man will ever understand

Let’s face it what goes around comes around it’s in the bible, it is a universal law. It’s called sowing and reaping according to Job 4:8 which states: Even as I have seen, they that plow iniquity, and sow wickedness, reap the same. It is always important to do unto other’s as you would want them to do unto you. If you can’t imagine your man/woman out cheating on you, giving someone else what’s yours then it’s simple do not go out and cheat on him/her and vice versa.

No matter how many times a woman forgives her man, if he continues to do the same thing without any change, eventually she is either going to A. leave him, or B. start cheating right along with him. Once this happens it will only keep getting worse. If a person is so unhappy then why stay in the relationship, sit down and have a long conversation and figure out if you two will continue to grow together or go your own separate ways. This is the best possible option and the most responsible one. It is an option that everyone will be able to respect at the end of the day.

A woman can only take so much…


If a man would take the time to listen to a woman; she will tell him exactly what the issue is but you have to be willing to listen, and willing to adjust. A woman will without a doubt tell you when she has had enough and when she is done. Does her man ever take heed and listen? A lot of the time the answer is No, because he just think that it is a game; in his mind, he believes that she won’t ever leave him because she hasn’t done so yet. He continues to cheat on her leaving her lost, broken, and confused, and empty on so many levels.

It’s hard for the relationship to advance at this point. She will eventually shut down and once she has shut down there is no coming back. In her mind, she thinks that he had his chance to get it right, but didn’t take advantage of it so she leaves him mentally.

In her mind, it’s over but she hasn’t physically left the relationship yet. Once she has left the relationship in her mind there is a 99.9% chance that she has another man, or thinking about it heavy. She will eventually act on her thoughts and once she does that…it’s a wrap because now she has turned into THE liar, cheater, and deceiver. She will be in a place that she never thought was possible for her to be in.

Once the relationship has gone down this road there is no need to even continue.


When he finds out about his woman infidelities he is going to leave her without a doubt (most men). A man can’t take the heartache, pain, rejection, and confusion that comes along with getting cheated on. His pride won’t let him. He won’t stick around as long as a woman would waiting for a change.

Ladies the best advice for when your relationship takes a turn for the worse and you have given your all is that you must take a stand. The cheating will only continue to happen if you allow it to. This is a lesson that took a long time for me to learn because I could never understand what I needed to do as a woman. The lesson was finally learned, and if you do not see progress, and keep finding yourself in the same spot time and time again you will need to take a bold step and be honest with yourself. Is this what you signed up for? Is this what you will continue to allow? Does this make you happy or feel less than a woman? Can you share your man with another woman? Does he really love you? Once you take the time and answer these questions truthfully you will have your answer. Honesty starts with yourself!

God Bless, Ms. Taynia

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Bonding and Praying for Our Daughter’s

A mother is a daughter’s first best friend

One of the first and most important relationships we have in life is with our mother. She cares for you, nurtures you, protects you, and love you; unconditionally. From the womb, she comforts you, calms you, and maybe even sing to you. You feel every emotion that she feels while you’re still inside her womb because at this moment you are one. You are connected and although some relationships change you will always have a special connection with your mother.

Mother and daughter relationship is a special bond that spans the years. Through laughter, worry, smiles and tears. A sense of trust that can’t be broken, a depth of love sometimes unspoken. -Unknown

There are a lot of mother’s and daughter’s with an unbreakable bond, and then there are the not so good mother and daughter type of relationships. It’s sad to see the bond broken between a mother and daughter because the bond is so special. It makes a person wonder what could have caused this type of breakdown within their relationship.

The Reality of it is, is that there are a lot of mother’s that dislike their children because of their child’s father. In their eyes all they can see out of their child is the hurt pressed upon them from their child’s father. It’s not right, and it’s not fair to the child, this type of relationship can bring on psychological problems for both, mother and child. After so long the daughter/child starts to hate their mother for improperly loving them, which can and will bring on a lifetime of pain if no one seeks out help.

As a Mother of three girls myself, I pray for my children all the time. I pray that our relationships stay bonded and that they will always honor me as I honor my mother. I pray for their relationship as sister’s because sisters are important. I pray for us as a unit; as a family.

This is one of the most important relationships that I have because I know that in their hearts they will always love me and they will always cherish our bond. This does not mean that our relationship is perfect, but it is real and it is pure. For a mother to raise daughter’s I know first hand that it is not easy and it does get hard sometimes. Attitudes, pride, disrespect can creep in sometimes but you have to be able to stop that at the door so that the problem won’t escalate.

I made a vow to myself to always be by their side and to always guide them through this life.

No matter what the situation, it may be good or bad they will always have my support. It is always very important to talk to them on their level and to always give the best advice because they depend on you. Though it may not seem like it they are always watching, and listening to everything you say and do. I pray that I never misled them, or misguide them. I always ask God to protect them as any mother would do. I pray for our bond as mother and daughters because it is important to me.

Just a few tips to think about:

1. Always be a listening ear and an open ear to your child.

By showing them that you are trustworthy this will open doors for your relationship and they don’t be so reluctant to come and talk to you.

2. Never make them feel less important to you by never taking time out for them.

3. Check on them just to see how they are doing.

4. Love them wholeheartedly, never take your anger and frustrations out on them. They need you the most!

5. Remind them that they are beautiful, precious, and loved that way they won’t be so shocked when a boy tells them that. It will also give them confidence and it will start to build their self-worth.

6. Last but not least, remember that sometimes as young girls, they just need a hug and kiss to let them know they are adored. Hug your child and let them know everything is alright!

Remember how emotional you were as a girl? Learn to compromise and be understanding but please don’t get run over!

God Bless, Taynia

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Falling In Love; For Real This Time


Just when I had given up on love, just when I made a commitment to stay focused on me, here comes real love. This love is a love that I have never known, it seems like a fairytale the way my hurt melts looking into his eyes. This love is what I thought I had way back when, but in reality, it doesn’t even compare. No disrespect, but there is a huge difference between someone saying that they love you, and someone actually taking the time out and showing that they love you.


You see, he will always take the time out, to make sure that you’re safe and secure. You will be able to feel his love miles away because his heart beats that strong for you. It’s an indescribable feeling because it’s something so real.

Once you find real true love you will know because NO-THING can compare

Now I’m not trying to brag, just trying to drop some knowledge to you.

Like Erykah Badu says: Love of my life
You are my friend
Love of my life
A dude I can depend, yeah, yeah Love of my life
Feels like a simple true love, yeah

Real love is out there, you just need to be open to it. You too can find love again. Whatever, you have been through should always be a lesson of what NOT to do, again.

Real Men do still existence we just have to stop going for the first guy that says hello. You’re worth way more than that and you have to know and believe that. Your value is as precious as rubies per Peoverbs 31:10.

Proverbs 31:10

(KJV) 10 Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.


God created you to be virtuous and to take charge, but also to be soft, gentle, and to be a helpmate to your husband. You can’t be the help he needs if you’re always in charge. You have to know when to turn it off and when to turn it on. What works out in the field will not fly at home, because God called the man to be the head.

Sometimes we have to step aside and let the man lead and guide us.

He is there to protect you, lead you, and guide you. He is there to love you like no one else ever will. If you are not able to let him lead, then maybe you should say a quick prayer and ask for God to lead and guide you. Ask God to show you how to step back and let your husband lead, and TRUST me…God will show you.

Lastly, Ladies, if he is leading you the Godly way, and properly investing into your relationship, then let him stay focused.

God Bless

Ms. Taynia A. Coleman

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Relationships: I have changed. He has changed. We are changing.


At the start of a relationship, everything is new and exciting. You take the time to find out what each other likes and dislikes are, you find out who a person really is. After talking for awhile you find out that you guys have more in common than not in common. You began to fall for one another, hard to the point that you guys talk day and night, and night and day.

Thoughts of him before falling asleep and thoughts of him when waking up, and let’s not mention the thoughts all throughout the day.

Some time has passed and you began to wonder if this will be the person who you will spend your forever with. Everything is loving and wonderful, and then you guys start to evolve together. In love in a total bliss until one day you want more out of life. Your thought process change and you no longer desire the simple things, you no longer want to just be ok with life.

You try to talk to your man and tell him things, you try to tell him your new wants, needs, and desires, but he’s not use to this new you. He doesn’t know how to deal with this new situation.


All the while inside your starting to see that You no longer like what he likes and vice versa. Your conversations are different, he feels as though you have changed and he is right because you are evolving into the real you. You’ve grown, you no longer want or desire what you use to want. You want more out of life but he has grown content, he doesn’t know anything but the old you.

What do you do?!? That’s a good question because a lot of relationships get stuck at this point and pride gets hurt. Women change and Men change all the time, but if you’re going to stand the test of time you will need to grow TOGETHER.

Keep each other updated, talk about the hard stuff. Sit down and explain to him what you are feeling inside and eventually he will start to feel that same way and maybe even want more than you do. He will always want to see you happy and winning. He will be able to stand by your side and hold you down. He should be your confidant unless he just can’t accept or respect your changes, which in most cases, doesn’t really happen. Unless he never really wanted a future with you in the first place. This transition will separate the real from the fake.

No one stays the same, change is inevitable on this life journey.

He should be evolving or wanting to evolve because he sees how much you have grown. There is nothing better than to change with the love of your life, to want more out of life, and to grow together it is #priceless.


Remember that if he is not happy for the change or even willing to change with you then you may want to do some inventory. You guys should be on the same page, at the end of the day.

God Bless

Ms. Taynia A. Coleman

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Is it Time to Forgive? — Get INSPIRED



What’s a relationship without trust?

This can be within any type of relationship, from your childhood teacher, to your pastor, to your mother, to your significant other, to your dog. If there isn’t a level of trust, love, respect, and understanding then what’s the point of wasting any time at all, right? For so long men and women stay stuck in an empty relationship because the trust is far gone and they don’t know how to get it back.

Let me tell you, it takes a ton of work to trust again, but it all starts with forgiveness. In order to forgive anyone, you have to first start with forgiving yourself, and then forgiving the one who hurt you.

Un-forgiveness brings about a burden in our lives and it weighs heavy on our hearts. As women we often times are hurt more than men because we wear our hearts on our sleeves. Once we decide to give away our hearts we expect to be treated with love.

The pain, the hurt, the rejection, the broken trust can linger on the inside for a long time if we aren’t careful. Within any relationship, we have our ups and downs, the good times as well as the bad, and let’s face it a lot of the time we do things to hurt the ones we truly love. Quite often we need forgiveness ourselves and that is why it is very important to keep our feelings and our better half feelings at the top of our thoughts. They don’t want to be hurt just like you don’t want to be hurt.


A lot of the time we hold on to un-forgiveness without ever knowing. Un-forgiveness can flare up if we think about the person, and/or if we see the person. If we get angry or upset then un-forgiveness is still lingering. If seeing them or thinking about them puts you in a bad head space, then let’s face it, you are still letting them control your space, time, and energy.

You really haven’t forgiven anyone not even yourself for dealing with that particular relationship or situation. It’s simply called out of sight out of mind. Meaning if you don’t see the person you will not think about them and because you no longer see them you sense a form of letting go, but in actuality, you just put it to the back of your mind. This causes a reaction every time you see them, think of them, or think of the situation, it takes away from your energy. It’s not healthy and it causes sickness to form up in your body. The Bible says in Mark 11:25-26 that simply we can’t be forgiven unless we forgive others. This is a great principle to live by and to honor.

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Let’s stop with the pity party and forgive, first work on forgiving yourself. You may not forget but forgive and move on. Most times it will take a lot of prayer, tears, and understanding but it will be worth it because you cannot stay mad at yourself forever. Then work on forgiving that person and/or situation because you don’t want your un-forgiveness to turn into bitter and hate. Lastly, after you’ve forgiven pray and ask God to forgive you!!!

God Bless,

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Understanding The Process

Patience is a very important factor in life, without it your life can become a living HELL! Waiting, and waiting and waiting, asking God repeatedly to help you through the storm because it seems as if what you are going through will never end. Little do we know, it is God that is pulling us through the storm, it is him that’s providing your strength in your weakest, darkest moments. It is God keeping your mind sane…He is there when no one else is there, but we have to understand that He will not force himself upon us. He is waiting for us to acknowledge that it is him that we need. God is simply saying “in due time my child, in due time you will believe again.”

It may be a little scary but God says to fear not, for fear is of the devil. Fear is not given to you by God, for God provides you with a spirit of Love, so when you feel fearful it’s good to always pray. For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. –Isaiah 41:13

We want things to happen for us right away, but as you can see everything does not happen overnight, and you must understand that you are not exempt from going through trials and tribulations…how else do you expect to grow? Understand that everything and every person have its own process, and take note that your process will be different from the next person process, never compare your situation to another person’s  because you never know exactly what they had to endure. You may be stuck in the same situation for years but another person it could only take a couple of months to figure out that this is not the way. You have to look within and begin to tell yourself that this is not right for me…ask yourself what do I have to do to change my situation. It just depends on you, the person, and how badly you want and deserve a change for the better. You have to change your mindset and get a different vision on how you want to exist in this world, you have to find your purpose in life…ask God because he will reveal it to you.

A lot of the things that we endure are because we did it some situations we caused to happen in our lives. Just think back to a challenge where you had a chance to do the right thing but you chose otherwise. We knew better but tried it anyway and now there is a disaster with your name on it. What is the first thing that we do?? Blame who? We blame God…why Lord, why did this happen to me? How did this happen…what did I do to deserve this?? When in fact, you know exactly what you did to get into this predicament. Sometimes we just have to take responsibility and own up to our wrong doings everything is not the God or the Devil’s fault…it just isn’t. Now don’t get me wrong there are things that we have no control of …some situations that we must face even when we don’t want to. This is when we need to really trust the process, and know that God will bring us out even stronger than we were before. 

Keep these things hidden in your heart so that when you’re going through the test and trials you will always have a reminder within you to guide you and also to protect you. Jeremiah 29:11-14 says For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. You may feel that all hope is lost while you’re in the mess that you are in, but there are brighter days ahead of you…I promise if you hold on just a little while longer you will get through. Remember that what you are going through is only temporary! You have to Understand the Process and let the Process do its job and that is for you to have a better outcome in the end.


Remember God will never leave you nor forsake you.



Running away from Hurt

Growing up as a Christian you kind of know the right from the wrong, and thats because you were taught on what you are suppose to do and what you are not suppose to do. It is always in the back of your mind, and you are fully aware of what you are doing but yet and still, you just want to do what you want to do, right? Somehow, knowing all of that never stopped me from making any bad decisions in life and as soon as I made a bad decision, the after math would always hit me like a ton of bricks. God, why did I do that, is always the question following after I chose to do the opposite of what I knew was right. Its been proven time after time that God will never leave you, nor foresake you, he will always be there to redirect you to the right path, but its best to listen when he speaks the first time. There are always lessons that will be learnt no matter how long it takes, no matter how many times you bump your head, God will keep you in that state until you get understand what you need to change or fix in your life. It will save a lot of heart break and confusion, if we  just do the right thing the first time. Trust me it will get better but sometimes we have to go through somethings in order to grow. It is true you do reap whatever you sow and whatevers done in the dark will always come to the light…one way or another. I use to hate when my parents use to say that to us (myself and my siblings), at that time im like sure it will. Hahaha the jokes on me right?! In making decisions you have to weigh everything out by thinking of the good outcomes verses the bad outcomes. In everything that you do, in every test that you go through there is always an outcome, and lets be clear, I want to be on the winning side. Its not so easy being faced with difficult situations that you could have easily avoided.



Just when you think you have done everything right as a Christian…things take a turn and not for the better. After being married for 9 years with 3 children…I could no longer stay binded to an unhealthy marriage any more. I prayed (almost everyday) and I fast about my marriage (because I felt so alone and hurt) and one day I heard clearly from the Holy spirit to file for a divorce…he’s just not ready to change. After all my ex husband had become someone elses lover and bestfriend. He had given her the son that I always wanted…so on that note God had to deal with me. I took a turn for the worse, those were some of the darkest days that I had ever faced.

First, let me tell you how I got to this place of loneliness and rejection in my life. What started off beautiful was no longer a sight to see. What was once real love was now more hurt than anything…daily I was feeling like I no longer existed. The love was gone, completely gone but it took me a while to figure that out. No matter how hard I tried to set the tone he would ignore it or most of the time he was never around to even notice. I was still blinded by what I thought was love, the little time he did spend with me made me think there was still hope even through all the lies and the psychological bs that I put up with. I was still searching for that perfect relationship that we both once knew..but it was never coming back. Too much had changed between us for it to ever go back to the way it was, for one the trust was out the door, honesty was out of the question. I wanted my bestfriend back but he was no where to be found, nor did he want to be found. I was in this thing by myself putting up a façade for the world to see while crying at night holding my pillow. This was nothing like the movies I saw…this was a long and cold road to be on by myself. He drifted off to lala land while I was stuck in reality praying for more. He was lost in a world of lust, confusion, denial, love, hurt, betrayal, abortions, lie on top of lies…all of this going on behind our closed doors. He was no longer the man I knew. Lets just say I knew he was cheating and we had been going back and forth about it for a while. it never ever crossed my mind to actual leave my husband to save myself…I was hurting and could not understand why this was happening to me, this cant be my life.

I first found out about the first affair in 2007 with the first girl, and the second one in 2008. Looking back I cant believe I stuck around for anything else to happen. My heart was broken to pieces over and over again, he showed no mercy. I devoted myself to this marriage and to my girls there is no way that I was going to let this family sink. Never realizing that I was only in my own way, never letting God in…I was so unhappy. My heart turned so cold…the smiles were long gone..I couldn’t pull myself out of this one until I woke up.

We both had come out of church but I always prayed and visit from time to time however, he did not. I always ask myself why didn’t I just walk away the first time back in 07? Somehow, I still was in love with this man, my husband, the one who was suppose to protect me instead was the who was hurting me internally without really taking any notice of me. I became invisible to him and I started to feel resentment towards him he became a stranger in our home…there was definitely a stronghold over me that kept me bond to that situation. I know that I wanted better but I had no way of knowing how to make it happen. We went through the verbal abuse and the fights we had alone with each other…I never wanted people to know what was really going on for some reason so I turned drinking into my friend at times. Every night after work I came home with a bottle of wine or beer just to numb myself, I no longer wanted to feel the heaviness of my heart, it also cleared my mind from the unwanted thoughts. I was trapped in my mind, at work it was even worse because all I could do was think about how miserable my life was. I eventually stopped talking to my co workers I just came to work to work and leave…back home to me and my girls. This was my everyday routine. Nothing ever changed except for the times he would lie and say how much he wanted and needed his family, then we were happy, again.


I redirected my interest…after awhile i gave up and figured this could work as long as we came home to each other every night. He was out doing his thing and so was I, but I still felt a void so that didnt work out too much longer. I longed for my husband…I truly missed my bestfriend. It was not until march of 2010, that it all got real for me, a little too real if you ask me. I got an email from a stranger on Facebook congratulating me on being a step mom…I told him that he had the wrong person, but in fact he had the right one. He gave me names, dates, and times…there was no mistake about it. My husband, son was coming and coming soon but what did he do?? Lie until he could not lie anymore and I was sick of it. It felt like someone had ripped my heart to little pieces and then picked it back up and cut it even deeper. My world had come to an end (so I thought). I didn’t wanna eat, I didn’t wanna be around not another person, in fact the thought of people just depressed me even the more. I had no choice but to cry on my mommy shoulder while she held me. Telling me your stronger than this…at this time i couldnt see my strength but at this very moment looking back…she told me nothing but the truth.My feelings were so hurt and I just kept asking the Lord why God why???? And he told me that he has a plan for my life…sometimes you have to go thru somethings in order to tell your story. So, this is me giving you just a piece of my story.
At this point me and my girls moved back with my parents and I would just lock myself in the room and would just cry, cry, and cry. I eventually lost myself in this process…I would go to work, with my hat on, I would try not to cry on the phone while talking to the customers, I did not want to speak to no one, afterwards, I would go home to my bed. I just remember thinking this can’t be life but it was….it was my life, my story! Looking back I thank God for that person on Facebook, because I would probably had never found out. Until this day I still do not know who actually sent me the message but it was most definitely a life changer for me.

Eventually, I did get back into church, my mom dragged me to church ( I promise just to go one night and I never stopped going). I was literally the walking dead! The Pastor called me up for prayer and asked me to get rebaptized…she knew my heart was broken and only God could heal it. So…I did, I was rebatized that night and when I came up from that water I felt so much lighter, God had lifted my world off my shoulders. My skin even became lighter something happened in that water. I forgave my husband and tried to make it work but his heart still wasnt back to me. I was on a new faith walk and was believing God to turn things around but that was not Gods plan for me..not at all. Although, my husband said he wanted us to make it work and that he wanted his family, he still never gave me (us) his all…his heart and mind was with his other family. It was sad because I could see the confusion in his face its hard to believe but we were still connected and it made me feel sad for him. He was lost and so was I…

Can a person really be in love with two people? I believe the answer is, yes! Its possible I watched it with my own eyes.  Our situation never got any better in fact it had gotten worse but yet I was feeling okay but only through the grace of God. I had to realize that if he wanted to change he would. He was in a battle of his own…I had to let go and let God deal with him in his own way and his own timing. So, that’s what I did…meanwhile we had baby girl number 3 and what should of been a happy time in my life was not. Instead I blamed myself for letting this happen again just as I thought I was letting go. I went to the abortion clinic alone for my first appointment, the second appointment he drove me to the door but neither of us had the heart to go through with it…thinking this can finally be a baby boy, so I kept my baby. Needlessly to say, we both were not ready for this but what could we do, she was here. This pregnancy I basically went through it on my own…God was showing me my strength back then. Him still cheating and lying I was over it…just done! I really thought that it would get better once she was here…yeah he was around a little more but that was it. I could do nothing but cry and feel as though everyone was talking about me behind closed doors. I felt alone and a little worthless! I beat myself up a lot. As time went on I gained a little more direction I began to want more out of life…feeling stuck so I just prayed and went to church until I got clarity and understanding for my life.

One day after being shown pictures of my husband online with his mistress and their son it was a wrap. I had to stop running from our issues and take in everything that was going on. It was sweetest day and I had been waiting for him all day to show up so that we could go out but he never came. It was just unbelievable that I could not get mad. I just knew that it was time to remove myself from this situation because it wasn’t healthy for me. I believe within that same week of me fasting and getting my answer from the Lord, I filed for a divorce. Cheating is grounds for divorce for some that dont know. I told him that I filed but like always he thought it was a joke…a week later he was served through the mail. He act as if he could not understand it, he broke down and begged me not to do it but I had to move forward. The passionate sex wasnt working any longer although that day he touched me in ways i had been wanting for but I had only heard this same story so many times before…in the back of my mind I was hoping for a change for the better, but it never came. Not saying that i was perfect, but I had no pictures on instagram with me and my other family…I did not have pictures posted of me kissing another guy like it was completely over. I had no choice but to disconnect my heart again and let it go….I had to give it to God. I could not of made it this far without God. Whats done in the dark will always come to the light I am a firm believer of that. I gave my all so many times but that last time was the final straw…my exact words are “your gonna regret this but people like you will have to learn the hard way.” He laughed it off but now its not so funny anymore because he now seem so lost at times and always bringing up the good old days. I just think to myself please just let it go…Im tired of hearing about it. I pray that he finds his way all the time..I just can no longer help him find it…he is finally free now, right? He thinks I have no feelings but the truth is what he’s going through now I had already went through it all those years of being unhappy…I cried almost everyday but he doesn’t get why I’m not bothered by the divorce. I’m just a little over it, is all  the grace of God is all that comes to mind. Don’t get me wrong were still friends and there for each other for our girls I’m just saying that I am no longer his backbone. and this he can feel.

Divorced after 9 years of marriage, not to mention the three little girls I have to guide and protect…they are basically all I have out of what was suppose to be a family.  My twenties are gone…hello thirty im sure we will a great beginning, middle, and ending!

I believe this is just another test of my faith, so that’s what keeps me holding on…because I know that God has a greater plan for me and my family.  The only way to look is upto God…he is my guiding light in my time of need. I thank you for taking the time out to read this. May God Bless!