It’s a fresh start of a brand new school year, oh how exciting it is. The children are back to school and not eating you out of a house and home; literally. Just think you may even be able to gain a piece of mind, but it all depends on your work schedule, right?
If you are a stay at home mom or work afternoons then you have the pleasure of having the morning’s all to yourself. If you work morning’s, however, you get NO break! (lol) It is true because while you are away at work, the children are away at school and when you get home, it is pretty much when everyone else get home. There is no personal “me” time unless you create it.
Where there is a will, there is a way!
Being that I was stuck on afternoons for over a year it made me realize not to ever take for granted the time that I have to spend with my family. Even when they are working my last nerve. When I am at home they are in my presence, if not directly in my presence they are not hard to get a hold to. I give them their space and most times I need a nap!
After thinking that I needed this major break in my life I found out that it wasn’t true. I have learned to be very careful about what I ask for. It is accurate that I needed time to clear my mind and let’s face it we all deal with stressful situations day to day. However, running away was never the answer.
Be careful of what you ask for because you might just get it
I mean I was exhausted, tired, overworked, and underpaid on top of all that a mother with damn near no help. What was I to think, say, or do? I just felt completely overwhelmed, incapable of loving my children properly because I felt like I could never sit down to catch a break. I just needed a small window to breathe and instead of taking charge of my life and this new situation I just wanted to run away. The truth of the matter is my fianće had my back, but was it fair for him to take on another person’s responsibility when they are able?
I thought I wanted to put a space in between myself and the children, I felt suffocated.
I found a job working 12-9p I thought this would give me the right amount of time in order to come home and deal with it all. A fresh start, right boy was I wrong! I hated it!! Not being able to pick my girls up from school, depending on other people to help carry my load, to say the least, it was a total nightmare. To make matters worse, when I tried to work the morning shift, I was told that there were no openings available.
Jesus, please fix it!!!
I don’t know what I want anymore is what I thought to myself. I felt lost because things were not looking up for me or at least I felt that way. Drowning in my own sorrow, I wonder if anybody could hear my silent cries.
God must have heard me because I wouldn’t trade another day shift to night shift if I can help it. It makes me cringe at the thought of me being away from home, from my family while life is happening.
As parents and especially as mothers life can become very draining if we let it. There are some ways we can encourage ourselves as time progresses. Peace is needed within your home and within your mind.
Steps to finding inner peace
4. Take an hour out of your day and go for a walk
7. Be Happy
Make at least one of these options your daily or weekly goal. It will help you get a clear mind and a better understanding of your surroundings. Life won’t seem so hard once you learn how to take time out for yourself. Do it for the ones that you love, and the ones that love you the most despite it all.
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