My Pain became My Purpose

January 15, 2013, a lot had changed for me. I DIVORCED a lot of difficult situations in my life. I left behind emotional pain, emotional turmoil, uncertainty, unbalance, depression, sadness, drama, mental and physical abuse, pain, rejection, sickness, and most of all I let go of a toxic marriage. Now, at the time I was going through all of this, I couldn’t see any of that, but today looking back over my life I see it all. I thank God for giving me the strength to find myself again, to find happiness again, to find joy again, and most importantly to find love again.

I was hurting, I was devasted because I couldn’t believe love didn’t love me.

Trapped in my mind, but most of all trapped in my heart along with my emotions. What was I to do in this situation, I couldn’t believe how things took a total turn for the worse. But, this was life, this was my life. This was my story I became torn between doing the right thing or still living a married life as a wife to a man that was already too far gone. I decided to do my own thang and eventually that wasn’t good enough anymore because I still felt an empty void. I searched for myself high and low, but I was nowhere to be found. I became cold and dangerous, I could care less about what was going on around me. There was no peace to be found, I began to drown my sorrows with liquor and wine. It was just me myself and I trying to figure out my next move, my escape, THE plan of action but I came up with nothing. Maybe because I did not want to be looked at as a failure is why I put up with so much. I can’t really tell you why I spent 9 yrs in a marriage that was really over after 3 yrs, but what I can tell you is that I learned a lot about myself and others. A lot about life, relationships and the lack thereof, I learned to depend on God more and to trust Him completely in the darkest time of my life.

I learned to let go of things that no longer serve a purpose for me in my life.

It’s no point of holding on to something that hurt you and brings harm to your body. Just let it go and if it’s meant to be, whatever it is, it will find it’s way back to you.

No drama, no setbacks, no more confusion just peace within my mind. No more staying up late nights concerning myself about someone else. I had to give it all to God, and the moment I fully put my trust in Him I became much clear with my purpose, my vision, and my passion here on earth.

How can you help somebody if you have never experienced anything?

My purpose is to serve others that’s been broken and left to pick up all the pieces. My purpose is to show you how to heal your heart and to love yourself again. My purpose is to show you how important forgiveness is in your life. My purpose is to show you how to turn your pain into your purpose. We were all out on this earth for a reason and I don’t believe it was just to suffer. Whatever you’re going through be sure to learn from it and grow from it.

In my upcoming book An Unnecessary Breakdown Within Your Relationship it will give you the keys to being in a happy space, keys to having a healthy life and keys to having a happy relationship. It will teach you how to forgive and be forgiven. After each chapter, I have included very powerful prayers to pray for yourself and your spouse. If you are going through a rough patch then this book will be for you.

Preorders will be available soon. As always GOD Bless!

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Mindset MakeOver

Stepping into 2018 with the right tools and the right mindset is so imperative. You should see nothing but better for your situation(s). Speak Life into Every situation and weed out all the negative thoughts, weed out all your fears, and instead of worrying…PRAY while PUSH(ing) your way through.

            It can’t stay dark forever

Knowing that there is GREATNESS on the other side should be just enough motivation to get your creative juices flowing. It’s never to late too start, as long as you start. It doesn’t matter your age, shape, or color God has a purpose for your life, but until you take action it will never manifest.

What could you do to help change.  your life in this very moment, that’s right; it all begins with a thought; a positive thought.

Take some time out to write out the vision God has given you, also ask God to reveal the sources and resources to you. In order for your vision to come to past, you must have the right sources and resources. God will start sending the right people in your life just when you need them.

Be quick to listen, take notes, and dig deeper for a greater revelation. It is true that God reveals, but you have to have a clear mind to hear, be willing, and obedient to grasp this thing. It is imperative that you do your part! Above all else please, stop doubting yourself! If He brought you to it, you better believe that He will bring you through it.

Be great, be you, and be #destinedwithapurpose in everything that you do, because if there is no plan with your purpose then your wants and desires won’t go very far.

Takeover your life by making up in your mind that you will no longer stay in the (mind) prison that you have trapped yourself in.

Here are five quick steps to get you started:

1. Train your brain to think positive. Every time there is a negative thought cancel it out and replace it with a positive thought. Start to pray if you can’t think of anything positive to say.

2. Surround yourself with positive people.

3. If you’re  in a negative environment start making your exit plan. How can you receive a breakthrough if there is never any positive energy?

4. Start listening to motivational speakers/music, read books, and do daily Affirmations several times a day.

5. It is important to get a journal and a planner in order to keep notes, ideas, visions, and plans. Order your weekly 2018 inspiring planner today.

In this time of your life, your main focus should be you and God. If you do not allow yourself to heal and grow how can you be any good for anybody? You just can’t! It’s okay to take time out to work on yourself. You must feel good about your life and the situations that concern you. Now, this is no walk in the park, you must do the work in order to bring change to your life. Don’t give up because you remained positive for one day and nothing happened. It’s happening everytime you position yourself for better, everytime you redirect your thoughts you are making a change. Stay content, stay consistent, and be humble because this is only a test, a test that you must pass this time.

Never give up on yourself because God is not through with you! You’ve got work to do. Write out your #goals and #affirmations and get started.

Welcome to #positivevibesonly status. Be blessed.

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Marriage: For Better or For Worse

I, (name), take you (name), to be my lawfully wedded (wife/husband), to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part.

Everybody is all for it when everything is smooth sailing. When the finances are just right, the bank account tight, the children are healthy, no one’s arguing and fighting, just contentment. When life falls into place for us we can’t help but be on a natural high because there is no stress, no failure, no pain, no suffering, no tears, everything and everybody is all walking on one accord. As much as we would love for it to stay this way life can happen at any moment. And what I mean by life, it means the roller coaster ride of the ups and downs of life, the tragedies, the attack on our marriages, the family, the silent drug problem, alcohol addiction, gambling, lying, cheating, deceit, your children are acting out, etc. It all can happen at any-time, it all can fall apart at any moment if we let it. Problems that we are dealing with internally, within ourselves can become even bigger if we don’t stop it in its tracks.

Change is inevitable we have to learn to embrace it head-on.

It’s important to stay prayerful and watchful while going through the good and the bad times.

You never know when you will need one of those prayers to pull on.

The bad times within a marriage can take a toll on the entire household.  The children can feel the effects and the stress of the arguments, and more than likely they will begin to act out. The first step is to try your best not to argue in front of the children, whatever it is should be discussed privately. Which is the hardest thing to do sometimes when you have to get things off your chest, but trust; there will be less confusion within the household.

Children should not hear every disagreement between you two. Only bring a situation to them after you and your significant other have come to a conclusion concerning them. By doing this it will not make them feel as though they need to choose a side. Stability is the key to winning in this area if it is an area of concern. Children need stability and consistency.

It is a balancing act especially when children are involved.

It is important to keep an open dialog to stay on track.

When you think about marriage you think of all the pretty things, all the excitement, and happiness but that’s not all marriage is. Can you stand the test of time, when things are turned upside down? Are you only invested in your relationship when everything is good, and not present when it all goes down? This is something to really dig deep and think about for a second. Did your vows mean anything to you at all or did you just say them because it is what’s normal?

In this instance, you should have realized, that it is very imperative to mean what you say and to say what you mean.

Get your vows out and think about what each and every statement mean to you. Try to figure out if you are in this for the long run, or just for the “good time” that don’t last always. Think about if you have your significant other back if they fail to be who you thought they were, or if they are struggling with something eternally. Are you the person that they can trust, the person that will never leave their side. For better or for worse, do you really mean it, it is definitely something to think about.

As always prayer and communication is the key to stand the test of time within any type of relationship. May God Bless Your Union.

God Bless,

Taynia A. Coleman

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Is it Time to Forgive? — Get INSPIRED



What’s a relationship without trust?

This can be within any type of relationship, from your childhood teacher, to your pastor, to your mother, to your significant other, to your dog. If there isn’t a level of trust, love, respect, and understanding then what’s the point of wasting any time at all, right? For so long men and women stay stuck in an empty relationship because the trust is far gone and they don’t know how to get it back.

Let me tell you, it takes a ton of work to trust again, but it all starts with forgiveness. In order to forgive anyone, you have to first start with forgiving yourself, and then forgiving the one who hurt you.

Un-forgiveness brings about a burden in our lives and it weighs heavy on our hearts. As women we often times are hurt more than men because we wear our hearts on our sleeves. Once we decide to give away our hearts we expect to be treated with love.

The pain, the hurt, the rejection, the broken trust can linger on the inside for a long time if we aren’t careful. Within any relationship, we have our ups and downs, the good times as well as the bad, and let’s face it a lot of the time we do things to hurt the ones we truly love. Quite often we need forgiveness ourselves and that is why it is very important to keep our feelings and our better half feelings at the top of our thoughts. They don’t want to be hurt just like you don’t want to be hurt.


A lot of the time we hold on to un-forgiveness without ever knowing. Un-forgiveness can flare up if we think about the person, and/or if we see the person. If we get angry or upset then un-forgiveness is still lingering. If seeing them or thinking about them puts you in a bad head space, then let’s face it, you are still letting them control your space, time, and energy.

You really haven’t forgiven anyone not even yourself for dealing with that particular relationship or situation. It’s simply called out of sight out of mind. Meaning if you don’t see the person you will not think about them and because you no longer see them you sense a form of letting go, but in actuality, you just put it to the back of your mind. This causes a reaction every time you see them, think of them, or think of the situation, it takes away from your energy. It’s not healthy and it causes sickness to form up in your body. The Bible says in Mark 11:25-26 that simply we can’t be forgiven unless we forgive others. This is a great principle to live by and to honor.

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Let’s stop with the pity party and forgive, first work on forgiving yourself. You may not forget but forgive and move on. Most times it will take a lot of prayer, tears, and understanding but it will be worth it because you cannot stay mad at yourself forever. Then work on forgiving that person and/or situation because you don’t want your un-forgiveness to turn into bitter and hate. Lastly, after you’ve forgiven pray and ask God to forgive you!!!

God Bless,

Taynia A. Coleman

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Running away from Hurt

Growing up as a Christian you kind of know the right from the wrong, and thats because you were taught on what you are suppose to do and what you are not suppose to do. It is always in the back of your mind, and you are fully aware of what you are doing but yet and still, you just want to do what you want to do, right? Somehow, knowing all of that never stopped me from making any bad decisions in life and as soon as I made a bad decision, the after math would always hit me like a ton of bricks. God, why did I do that, is always the question following after I chose to do the opposite of what I knew was right. Its been proven time after time that God will never leave you, nor foresake you, he will always be there to redirect you to the right path, but its best to listen when he speaks the first time. There are always lessons that will be learnt no matter how long it takes, no matter how many times you bump your head, God will keep you in that state until you get understand what you need to change or fix in your life. It will save a lot of heart break and confusion, if we  just do the right thing the first time. Trust me it will get better but sometimes we have to go through somethings in order to grow. It is true you do reap whatever you sow and whatevers done in the dark will always come to the light…one way or another. I use to hate when my parents use to say that to us (myself and my siblings), at that time im like sure it will. Hahaha the jokes on me right?! In making decisions you have to weigh everything out by thinking of the good outcomes verses the bad outcomes. In everything that you do, in every test that you go through there is always an outcome, and lets be clear, I want to be on the winning side. Its not so easy being faced with difficult situations that you could have easily avoided.



Just when you think you have done everything right as a Christian…things take a turn and not for the better. After being married for 9 years with 3 children…I could no longer stay binded to an unhealthy marriage any more. I prayed (almost everyday) and I fast about my marriage (because I felt so alone and hurt) and one day I heard clearly from the Holy spirit to file for a divorce…he’s just not ready to change. After all my ex husband had become someone elses lover and bestfriend. He had given her the son that I always wanted…so on that note God had to deal with me. I took a turn for the worse, those were some of the darkest days that I had ever faced.

First, let me tell you how I got to this place of loneliness and rejection in my life. What started off beautiful was no longer a sight to see. What was once real love was now more hurt than anything…daily I was feeling like I no longer existed. The love was gone, completely gone but it took me a while to figure that out. No matter how hard I tried to set the tone he would ignore it or most of the time he was never around to even notice. I was still blinded by what I thought was love, the little time he did spend with me made me think there was still hope even through all the lies and the psychological bs that I put up with. I was still searching for that perfect relationship that we both once knew..but it was never coming back. Too much had changed between us for it to ever go back to the way it was, for one the trust was out the door, honesty was out of the question. I wanted my bestfriend back but he was no where to be found, nor did he want to be found. I was in this thing by myself putting up a façade for the world to see while crying at night holding my pillow. This was nothing like the movies I saw…this was a long and cold road to be on by myself. He drifted off to lala land while I was stuck in reality praying for more. He was lost in a world of lust, confusion, denial, love, hurt, betrayal, abortions, lie on top of lies…all of this going on behind our closed doors. He was no longer the man I knew. Lets just say I knew he was cheating and we had been going back and forth about it for a while. it never ever crossed my mind to actual leave my husband to save myself…I was hurting and could not understand why this was happening to me, this cant be my life.

I first found out about the first affair in 2007 with the first girl, and the second one in 2008. Looking back I cant believe I stuck around for anything else to happen. My heart was broken to pieces over and over again, he showed no mercy. I devoted myself to this marriage and to my girls there is no way that I was going to let this family sink. Never realizing that I was only in my own way, never letting God in…I was so unhappy. My heart turned so cold…the smiles were long gone..I couldn’t pull myself out of this one until I woke up.

We both had come out of church but I always prayed and visit from time to time however, he did not. I always ask myself why didn’t I just walk away the first time back in 07? Somehow, I still was in love with this man, my husband, the one who was suppose to protect me instead was the who was hurting me internally without really taking any notice of me. I became invisible to him and I started to feel resentment towards him he became a stranger in our home…there was definitely a stronghold over me that kept me bond to that situation. I know that I wanted better but I had no way of knowing how to make it happen. We went through the verbal abuse and the fights we had alone with each other…I never wanted people to know what was really going on for some reason so I turned drinking into my friend at times. Every night after work I came home with a bottle of wine or beer just to numb myself, I no longer wanted to feel the heaviness of my heart, it also cleared my mind from the unwanted thoughts. I was trapped in my mind, at work it was even worse because all I could do was think about how miserable my life was. I eventually stopped talking to my co workers I just came to work to work and leave…back home to me and my girls. This was my everyday routine. Nothing ever changed except for the times he would lie and say how much he wanted and needed his family, then we were happy, again.


I redirected my interest…after awhile i gave up and figured this could work as long as we came home to each other every night. He was out doing his thing and so was I, but I still felt a void so that didnt work out too much longer. I longed for my husband…I truly missed my bestfriend. It was not until march of 2010, that it all got real for me, a little too real if you ask me. I got an email from a stranger on Facebook congratulating me on being a step mom…I told him that he had the wrong person, but in fact he had the right one. He gave me names, dates, and times…there was no mistake about it. My husband, son was coming and coming soon but what did he do?? Lie until he could not lie anymore and I was sick of it. It felt like someone had ripped my heart to little pieces and then picked it back up and cut it even deeper. My world had come to an end (so I thought). I didn’t wanna eat, I didn’t wanna be around not another person, in fact the thought of people just depressed me even the more. I had no choice but to cry on my mommy shoulder while she held me. Telling me your stronger than this…at this time i couldnt see my strength but at this very moment looking back…she told me nothing but the truth.My feelings were so hurt and I just kept asking the Lord why God why???? And he told me that he has a plan for my life…sometimes you have to go thru somethings in order to tell your story. So, this is me giving you just a piece of my story.
At this point me and my girls moved back with my parents and I would just lock myself in the room and would just cry, cry, and cry. I eventually lost myself in this process…I would go to work, with my hat on, I would try not to cry on the phone while talking to the customers, I did not want to speak to no one, afterwards, I would go home to my bed. I just remember thinking this can’t be life but it was….it was my life, my story! Looking back I thank God for that person on Facebook, because I would probably had never found out. Until this day I still do not know who actually sent me the message but it was most definitely a life changer for me.

Eventually, I did get back into church, my mom dragged me to church ( I promise just to go one night and I never stopped going). I was literally the walking dead! The Pastor called me up for prayer and asked me to get rebaptized…she knew my heart was broken and only God could heal it. So…I did, I was rebatized that night and when I came up from that water I felt so much lighter, God had lifted my world off my shoulders. My skin even became lighter something happened in that water. I forgave my husband and tried to make it work but his heart still wasnt back to me. I was on a new faith walk and was believing God to turn things around but that was not Gods plan for me..not at all. Although, my husband said he wanted us to make it work and that he wanted his family, he still never gave me (us) his all…his heart and mind was with his other family. It was sad because I could see the confusion in his face its hard to believe but we were still connected and it made me feel sad for him. He was lost and so was I…

Can a person really be in love with two people? I believe the answer is, yes! Its possible I watched it with my own eyes.  Our situation never got any better in fact it had gotten worse but yet I was feeling okay but only through the grace of God. I had to realize that if he wanted to change he would. He was in a battle of his own…I had to let go and let God deal with him in his own way and his own timing. So, that’s what I did…meanwhile we had baby girl number 3 and what should of been a happy time in my life was not. Instead I blamed myself for letting this happen again just as I thought I was letting go. I went to the abortion clinic alone for my first appointment, the second appointment he drove me to the door but neither of us had the heart to go through with it…thinking this can finally be a baby boy, so I kept my baby. Needlessly to say, we both were not ready for this but what could we do, she was here. This pregnancy I basically went through it on my own…God was showing me my strength back then. Him still cheating and lying I was over it…just done! I really thought that it would get better once she was here…yeah he was around a little more but that was it. I could do nothing but cry and feel as though everyone was talking about me behind closed doors. I felt alone and a little worthless! I beat myself up a lot. As time went on I gained a little more direction I began to want more out of life…feeling stuck so I just prayed and went to church until I got clarity and understanding for my life.

One day after being shown pictures of my husband online with his mistress and their son it was a wrap. I had to stop running from our issues and take in everything that was going on. It was sweetest day and I had been waiting for him all day to show up so that we could go out but he never came. It was just unbelievable that I could not get mad. I just knew that it was time to remove myself from this situation because it wasn’t healthy for me. I believe within that same week of me fasting and getting my answer from the Lord, I filed for a divorce. Cheating is grounds for divorce for some that dont know. I told him that I filed but like always he thought it was a joke…a week later he was served through the mail. He act as if he could not understand it, he broke down and begged me not to do it but I had to move forward. The passionate sex wasnt working any longer although that day he touched me in ways i had been wanting for but I had only heard this same story so many times before…in the back of my mind I was hoping for a change for the better, but it never came. Not saying that i was perfect, but I had no pictures on instagram with me and my other family…I did not have pictures posted of me kissing another guy like it was completely over. I had no choice but to disconnect my heart again and let it go….I had to give it to God. I could not of made it this far without God. Whats done in the dark will always come to the light I am a firm believer of that. I gave my all so many times but that last time was the final straw…my exact words are “your gonna regret this but people like you will have to learn the hard way.” He laughed it off but now its not so funny anymore because he now seem so lost at times and always bringing up the good old days. I just think to myself please just let it go…Im tired of hearing about it. I pray that he finds his way all the time..I just can no longer help him find it…he is finally free now, right? He thinks I have no feelings but the truth is what he’s going through now I had already went through it all those years of being unhappy…I cried almost everyday but he doesn’t get why I’m not bothered by the divorce. I’m just a little over it, is all  the grace of God is all that comes to mind. Don’t get me wrong were still friends and there for each other for our girls I’m just saying that I am no longer his backbone. and this he can feel.

Divorced after 9 years of marriage, not to mention the three little girls I have to guide and protect…they are basically all I have out of what was suppose to be a family.  My twenties are gone…hello thirty im sure we will a great beginning, middle, and ending!

I believe this is just another test of my faith, so that’s what keeps me holding on…because I know that God has a greater plan for me and my family.  The only way to look is upto God…he is my guiding light in my time of need. I thank you for taking the time out to read this. May God Bless!